The first thing written for him

Have you ever been so afraid to catch something you feel like you've been chasing your entire life? Lately I have.

 My biggest failures in life are caring too much and pushing people away as they get too close. Those can also the best part about me, well caring too much can be away. I'll keep pushing you away until you make me feel invincible standing next to you. You can ask me why all you want, but the truth is pain. I hate that feeling of an emotional rollercoaster, that feeling of being letdown, and I figure if I push people away before they get to close I'll never have to wonder what it's like to be letdown.

You have wonderful glass eyes. Very unique to the color, shape and piercing stare. I'm an eye kind of girl. It is very rare for me to say something nice about person's eyes unless I really feel they have magnificent eyes. And you share the best stories in your eyes.

 When you're not around I miss your lips, and everything attached to them. Lips so soft, true story; I've kissed many lips in my day, and I must say your lips are like an oasis of fresh almond milk creme. They also house your brilliant smile. It truly is to die for.

 You mean more to me than you may think, and I'm sorry if there is ever a moment of doubt. I don't dream to cast that upon you. If you really want me to speak the truth...the truth is you're warming up to me more, and my fear of getting to close is starting to subside. I've let you in this far, and I do a little more each day. Maybe I am crazy. Maybe I do talk too much some days, or not enough others. You make me say and do things in this world I wouldn't normally. You bring out the good, bad, sad, ugly in me. I love that rush, that new feeling of happiness I've found. Don't take me for granted my wrath may be unbearable.

Thank you for believing in me, for giving me something to hold onto. I believe in your every dream. Your love, has already changed the world, and you are destined for greatness. Everyone in your path of life is more than lucky to have known such a beautiful face. I am one of the luckiest. I feel the sea is changing as I tell you I want all of who you are and dream to be.